Wow, okay.
Here goes, as I see that quite a for bit has happened since I was here last. How that for first impressions?
Let me start by saying that all of this is quite a come to Jesus-ish for me. I had no idea that one basic question could really make me think about certain aspects of how I raise my daughter, and some of it is frighteningly insightful, like you know our lives. Kinda makes me feel uncomfortable, even though none of you are being intentionally harsh. It just that I have come to realize a few things, it's eating at me.
Bri is an only child for us, and the youngest one on my side of the family, with a 14 year gap from the last cousin. She was "everybody's baby" and still is so. She has been an only "little" kid at family and social gatherings most of her life, so it's her comfort zone. Yes, at our own fault and doing, Bri is also a "little princess" with all the things I felt a young princess would get in real life. Private school, ballet, and annual trip to Disney World where she would wear a princess dress every day of the trip. So ... yes, we (husband and I) turned her into her princess obsessed self.
I honestly never thought this whole princess thing was bad. (Is it biting us in the tuckus now?)
Saying all that, I want you all to know that she isn't a bad girl by far. She's smart, she likes to do silly things to make her friends laugh, and has a huge personality.
It's interesting the varying things that make her jealous. That one wedding and the flower girls - yes. Doing a natural look pageant and being around other little girls in dresses - no. Her handful of dance competitions with other, better skilled children - no. Going to a classical concert with daddy and I and seeing a featured child playing her violin - yes. Going to birthday parties and not being the birthday kid - no. Screaming "go away you dodo brain" (ok, I'll admit we laughed at this - shame on us, I know) at the TV at the child singer on America's Got Talent - a big yes.
We really don't know what will set her off.
But she does get set off. We fix this by taking her away from the situation and waiting it out until she stops crying, and then try to avoid that trigger (leaving before curtain call so she won't have to see the violin girl take a bow).
We ask why she is jealous, and she straight with us "ugh, not fair ... how come they get to do that?" about the flower girls. So it's not like she hides it. We tell her we can't do anything to make her un-jealous, but maybe we can maybe think of ways to see that what she is jealous of could be not fun. The dresses are probably itchy. Voilin kid's fingers probably hurt so much from practicing so much. Singing girl's voice probably can't talk alot because she has to save her voice.
As for the entire "being scared" bit, I think many of you have nailed it with "apprehensive". Her thing is, after some talk, is that, in her words, "I want to be the only kid". I explained to her that she can't be the only kid in every group, because, well, she just can't. If other kids are invited, then that's just how it is.
I been telling her how her suit is going to make her look sophisticated and classy, and she will have to act the part. Crying and sulking isn't either of those. If she still wants to keep up her "princess" thing, I said we can get a crown or a star shaped shaped brooch and we can pin it on her jacket lapel! Not obvious, but just enough to make her feel special. She can get a new little purse and kitten heels to go with the outfit too. I really want to make this a "grown up" ordeal for her.
Goodness, all of you have made me do a lot of pondering, and I been hesitant to respond until now. Please forgive my absence in not getting back to everyone right away. I am thankful for all of your insight, even the hard to read ones.